Warning: Geekiest Post Ever

About a year and a half ago, I started watching this television show about the lives and loves of a group of surgical interns... now, I'm just really hooked, it's crazy. I just love this show, Grey's Anatomy. Today the first episode of its third season came out after months of waiting and counting down the days, literally (Told you! Geeky post!)

Seriously, how can you not love this show?

I could go on and on about this. But I'm stopping myself from all this ranting and raving now. Just wanted to share all this happiness with everyone.

Sorry, even I can't believe I posted this, but I just had to share. Hehehe

Part II By Request

Since I posted the game Aloy and I used to play, some people have been telling me I missed some or that I should add their favorites as well. So here goes:

"Ang pangarap mo'y pangarap ko, Ang pasanin mo'y pasanin ko, Ang damdamin mo'y damdamin ko, sinta. Ang kalayaan mo'y kalayaan ko, Ang digmaan mo'y digmaan ko, Ang buhay mo at buhay ko'y iisa." -Iisa, Gary Granada

"My heart the red sun, your heart the moon clouded... not everything is better spoken out loud, not when I'm talking to you." -Mystery, Indigo Girls

"You tell me where to go and though I might leave to find it, I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it." -Your Body is a Wonderland, John Mayer

"Is there really no escape, no escape from time of any kind?" -Half Life, Duncan Sheik

"I have learned that love is a word that gets thrown a little bit too much, the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss." -Same Ground, Kitchie Nadal

"And I wonder where these dreams go when the world gets in your way. What's the point in all this screaming? No one's listening anyway." -Acoustic #3, Goo Goo Dolls

"It only hurts when I'm breathing. My heart only breaks when it's beating. My dreams only die when I'm dreaming." -It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing, Shania Twain

"Freedom's just another word for nothing to lose." -Me & Bobby McGee, Kris Kristofferson

"So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell? Blue skies for pain? Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?" -Wish You Were Here, Pink Floyd

"How long till my soul gets it right?" -Galileo, Indigo Girls

"When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on), if you feel like letting go (hold on), when you've had too much of this life, well hang on. Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends." -Everybody Hurts, REM

"Time made me stronger. You're no longer on my mind." -Doin' Just Fine, Boyz II Men

"How high can you fly with broken wings? Life's a journey not a destination. And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings." -Amazing, Aerosmith

Warning: The last one is kinda morbid. (JD, you owe me 10 bucks! =P)
"Do you ever hear the screams as the limbs are all torn off? Did you ever kiss the child who just saw his father shot?... Do you dream at night? Do you sleep at night? I doubt it." -Blinded by Rainbows, Rolling Stones

"Feet Fail Me Not..."

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted. One moment.
Would you capture it or just let it slip?
-LOSE YOURSELF, Eminem

I always seem to find a song that serves as the soundtrack to whatever is going on in my life, and Lose Yourself by Eminem seems to fit perfectly at this moment in time. Although I believe opportunities come around often and it's just a matter of seeing it and being able to identify it, some opportunities I tend to want to pursue more vigorously than others.

I guess being someone not especially gifted with decision-making skills faced with a "Fight or Flight" dilemma gives me a headache. I have yet to decide if this opportunity is what I really want, and if I'm ready to accept possible rejection for something I'm not sure I want in the first place. But what if this is what I really want? Then, not even trying is not an option. I can't win the game if I didn't play at all.

As an answer to Eminem's posed question, I guess I'm going to have to capture it. For me, I think I'm secure enough to live with the rejection, if it comes. I'd much rather live with that than have regrets and think if the what-if's for the rest of my life if I just let it slip.

So I think I'm just going to ride this roller coaster as far as I can go with it. If I fall off, I know all the broken bones will heal in time. The fear of steep climbs and drops and all those "loop the loops(?)" can make the ride more enjoyable anyway. And with all the unexpected twists and turns, I'll just have to fasten my seatbelt, hold on tight and enjoy the ride.

Damn, I Wish I Wrote That...

This is a shoutout to my friend, Aloy, who is currently in the Netherlands working on her MA (among other things *wink wink*). We used to play this game where we would send each other messages of lines from songs that we wish we thought of first. This is my own little way missing her.

"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable. Life's like an hourglass glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button, girl. So cradle your head in your hands and breathe. Just breathe." -Breathe, Anna Nalick

"The hardest to learn was the least complicated." -Least Complicated, Indigo Girls

"...binabasura ng iba ang syang pinapangarap ko." -Halaga, Parokya ni Edgar

"There ain't a single thing that I found with wings that decided to stay." -Leaving, Josh Ritter

"Strange how I fit into you. There's a distance erased with the greatest of ease. Strange how you fit into me, a gentle warmth filling the deepest needs." -Eric's Song, Vienna Teng

"I know they think I'm crazy, but everything I am is everything I was taught to be." -A Few Small Bruises, Maria Mena

"It feels like home to me. It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from." -Feels Like Home, Chantal Kreviazuk

"Seize the moment. Try to freeze it and own it, squeeze it and hold it, coz we consider these minutes golden." -Sing for the Moment, Eminem

"Cause love doesn't hurt, so I know I'm not falling in love. I'm just falling into pieces." -Wreck of the Day, Anna Nalick

"I've been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you, but time makes you bolder, children get older. I'm getting older, too." -Landslide, Fleetwood Mac

"I fall asleep with my friends around me. Only place I know, I feel safe. I'm gonna call this home." -The World You Love, Jimmy Eat World

Friends Forever... Fact or Fiction?

I will always remember 2006 as the year I became used to getting left behind. I guess having several close friends disperse themselves all over the world for a wide variety of reasons (work... family... love...) has taken its toll.

Don't get me wrong, I've never thought the whole "Friends Forever" bull kindergarten children believed in was true or anything. I always knew friendships, relationships in general, only lasted as long as they were, for lack of a better term, convenient... not that they aren't worth every shared laughter and tear so to speak. It can be bliss, but all things must come to an end (somehow good things end a lot sooner). Too soon these kindergarten friends who were vowing to be friends forever one week, find other people who have better toys to play with the next. Then one day, some years later, while having an ice-blended coffee, they see each other and whisper to whoever friend they have at the moment, "I used to be friends with that girl/boy/person."

But lately, I'm starting to think this whole long-term friendship thing could work. Maybe there are relationships that are built on a more solid foundation than those of children's. Maybe the laughter and tears brought about by celebration and heartaches outweigh those by jokes and wounds. Maybe sharing a sandwich at recess just isn't quite the same as sharing life-changing experiences.

Maybe I've just redefined what friendship is to me, but whatever, right?

I've Learned...

... that nature is truly beautiful and that God is truly great.
... that friends will always be there for me even if they aren't there anymore.
... that though I feel wanted, I am never really needed.
... that real and solid friendships are hard to find and require a lot of work.
... that friends are just people who accompany me at specific parts of my journey as I accompany them in parts of theirs, and sooner or later, forks in the road will separate our journeys.
... that I have reached several forks in this road.
... that the idealistic side of me hopes we can all achieve all our dreams while supporting each other but in reality, we show our support best by letting each other go.
... that it's still best to keep my distance. It's the most effective self-preservation method. I can't miss what I never had.
... that nothing lasts forever and good things surely end sooner than you want them to.
... that it's easy to let people go. The hard part is dealing with the sadness and the emptiness.

Blanked Out!

I never thought this whole blogging thing would be so hard! I thought sharing whatever weird and wacky idea that comes to mind to the world (or at least, to anyone patient enough, or should i say bored enough to read something I would write) would be fairly easy. But deciding which of the six million useless ideas I get I should share, I admit, is pretty challenging. So, I figure I would just write about the lack of a worthy idea to write about, or the difficulty of choosing which useless idea I could write about.

I guess this post is pretty much as useless as the rest of my blog. hehehe

Whatever, right?